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Mum, why complain at something that you aim exampled yourself. Causing this by requi stupefyeing me to be how your perfective child would be. Well, sorry to say, I am non what you indispensableness me to be.You work been paying prudence to yourself so a great deal over the years you substantiate actu aloney forgotten what I am, brushing excursus all the bad things I wipe proscribed done, making excuses for me.I am alright. animation how I compliments things to be, to do what I want, when I want. This is purport, a life that does non consider you in it at all. I stand be myself, with bulge being criticised.Having what I want, instead of someone making choices for me. In actual fact it re passs me of the term you brought me those untellable curtains, they honourable symbolise to me, what you equal, I hated them, and the colours, the style I righteous unwrap your face on them mentation yes these atomic number 18 perfect for me. Yes not me, you, perfect for yo u. on the saveton intend to yourself that we do not conduct the same tastes in life.You just want to hire everything passing right. So you fag make the family look vertical. So that whenever anybody comes round, they trick comment on how, you be the perfect family. To make people jealous of what you want us to deport, but we put on not got it. You just want the family with a intemperate working father with a vertical job and income, Perfect scram with a good job and who keeps the house estimable and brings up the children to be well behaved and good mannered. With a child who does well at school, always polite and stays out of trouble, you would love that. You have got the father and the mother the child is a bit different, it is me and I am who I am, I do not put a glad face on just cause you want me to and I provide usher me line upings how I want to.I am feeding myself alright I have a job and people are treating me with respect where I am right off, homogen eous an adult, how people should be at my age. I feel responsible now, like I have a meaning in life. I am not into prostitution, and I lot not believe you tear down fought that I would consider that path. Guess you just do not know me that well. I have got new friends now so I hope you are happy, what you have made me do, I have changed my life-style around. I am independent now, and happy if you saw me you would be proud but I do not want to see you, you just hurt me with thinking I am a chastening all the time. Thinking I can not do anything and making me feel my life was worthless?I smoked pot mute because you drove me to it, I was depressed and engageed something to take my mind of things. Depressed to know every time I go home I have to act like someone you want me to be. I have now turned my mind to different things now. I cull happier things now like socialise without having to birth drunk and making a fool out of myself. I prefer my own space, with people that li ke the things I do. I share a straight off now with a girl a few years older than me and she is helping me out, and introducing me to her friends, which are all lovely attested people.The time father called me a streetwalker was it, I know he may have been upset to find his female child with condoms in her bag, but mum I had them to protect me, so I couldnt subscribe pregnant or get diseases, a step that unaccompanied(prenominal) people that have matured would do, calling me a slovenly woman though he does not scour know hat he is lecture about I have only ever had sex with one person, not like I am red round sleeping with anybody. The person I had sex with as well was my familiar of six months, we had something special but I stopped the relationship to move on in life to get international from the misery of living life with you.You just take the pain out on me because you think I am going to be like my grandmother, because that she liked me best(p) than her own daug hter. She paid more attention to me than you. You can not bear to think it but it is true and your father only paid interest into you when he set out you had a brain. I am thinking it must have been steadfastly for you but you do not need to take the anger out on me, making me into the person that you just cherished to be when you was in your childhood.All the parties mum is what a normal teenager does and get drunk because then they start to convey up more and realise this is not the life for me and change. Its a thing that everybody does at some stage in on that point life. Some would think that you act like a teenager jealous of everything that is snap off than you. I have realised all these parties arent what I want to do I am now going to do a college course and study parentage studies. This is because I want to do something with my life and make a hit out of it so, if we meet again you and dad can be proud of what I have done.Then if we meet that day you will see I am d ifferent to you, I have different ambitions. I like other things than having a easy life, like you. I want to be someone, and stand up and be counted for I want not just sit back and think, things are going to be alright all the time because postcode will ever be perfect.